Well, so I have been doing a lot of thinking about this crazy thing called dating. Why is this concept crazy to a 20, almost 21, year old? It's crazy because I have been single my entire life. As crazy as it may seem to some people, and it seems crazy to me sometimes, but honestly I definitely was not ready for a real relationship.
Lately, I have been thinking about dating, relationship with a guy(scary thought right there, lol), but I think, I think I'm ready. Or at least finally ready to have a closer relationship with a guy than I have normally had in my life. Maybe not dating, but something more than just a friend, maybe a best friend. Who knows.
Gah... I don't know, it's just so nerve-wrecking for me to think about going on a first date, just the thought of it is a little awkward. All I know is I need to listen to myself to know when to take things to the next step, I shouldn't force myself to go where I am not ready, even if people my age are getting married.
Everyone's different and I just need to take it at my own pace.
Thursday, June 30, 2011
Monday, June 20, 2011
God is Love
You should totally read 1 John 4:7-21 before you read my blog post, but since I know you probably will not, that's ok too. But it's a great section if you haven't read it before.
So "God is love," that is a phrase that is said so many times in the church and by other Christians, but as redundant as it may sound, it's so true.
If you read it, it's mentioned almost every verse. One of my favorite verses that is just so "woah, woah, woah, woah." (lol).
"Whoever does not love does not know God, for God is love." 1 John 4:8
How crazy is that! If you don't love then you don't know God. To better explain what I felt as soon as I read it, I am just going to copy what I literally just wrote a few minutes ago.
" 1 John 4:7-21 Is an absolutely beautiful chapter or section. It talks about how God is love. And that he loved us first because we love and God is love, therefore we know God. And because we love and when we love others, others see God . It also talks about how when we have love we don't have to fear, for the love God has in us conquers the fears we have."
So I guess if you really wanted to evangelize to others, one of the best ways is to show love to them and well I already mentioned, but basically they will see God. How great is that!
So "God is love," that is a phrase that is said so many times in the church and by other Christians, but as redundant as it may sound, it's so true.
If you read it, it's mentioned almost every verse. One of my favorite verses that is just so "woah, woah, woah, woah." (lol).
"Whoever does not love does not know God, for God is love." 1 John 4:8
How crazy is that! If you don't love then you don't know God. To better explain what I felt as soon as I read it, I am just going to copy what I literally just wrote a few minutes ago.
" 1 John 4:7-21 Is an absolutely beautiful chapter or section. It talks about how God is love. And that he loved us first because we love and God is love, therefore we know God. And because we love and when we love others, others see God . It also talks about how when we have love we don't have to fear, for the love God has in us conquers the fears we have."
So I guess if you really wanted to evangelize to others, one of the best ways is to show love to them and well I already mentioned, but basically they will see God. How great is that!
Sunday, June 19, 2011
Your Beautiful
As much as I want to go to sleep, I just can't. I just have the urge to worship my Heavenly Father. It basically started with listening to Phil Wickam's song, "Beautiful." If you haven't heard it I definitely reccomend that you listen to it. It's such a great song of worship. And it's caused me to just really worship my Father in all His beautiy and glory. I mean it is Father's Day, so it's only appropiate.
Now it's storming outside. Which is honestly my favorite weather, the lightning, the thunder. It's just another part of God's creation that causes me to look up to Him as my mentor in art. I mean He created it all so why not?
If you can't sleep, why not spend that with me worshipping our God rather than spending it doing something else?
Praise Him for what He's done this past week. Thank Him for everything He has provided or anything. Ask Him for anything that you need. Pray for the church that there would be a down pouring of the Holy Spirit and authentic worship in churces around the world. Pray that God would give you boldness to tell at least one person about Him this week. Pray for your family. Pray for the Soldiers fighting for our freedom on and off the battlefield. Pray that God would keep us from temptation and keep us in Him word to find of the Devil, using the sword God's given us. Pray for the victims of trafficking, labor and sex. Pray for orphans, and widows. Pray for families that are falling apart.
Leave a comment, I'd love to pray for you. :)
End your prayers with more thanksgiving and praises! That's the way Jesus taught us to pray. :)
Now it's storming outside. Which is honestly my favorite weather, the lightning, the thunder. It's just another part of God's creation that causes me to look up to Him as my mentor in art. I mean He created it all so why not?
If you can't sleep, why not spend that with me worshipping our God rather than spending it doing something else?
Praise Him for what He's done this past week. Thank Him for everything He has provided or anything. Ask Him for anything that you need. Pray for the church that there would be a down pouring of the Holy Spirit and authentic worship in churces around the world. Pray that God would give you boldness to tell at least one person about Him this week. Pray for your family. Pray for the Soldiers fighting for our freedom on and off the battlefield. Pray that God would keep us from temptation and keep us in Him word to find of the Devil, using the sword God's given us. Pray for the victims of trafficking, labor and sex. Pray for orphans, and widows. Pray for families that are falling apart.
Leave a comment, I'd love to pray for you. :)
End your prayers with more thanksgiving and praises! That's the way Jesus taught us to pray. :)
Monday, May 23, 2011
God's Timing Really is Perfect
As many times as you have heard it from churches, pastors, friends, or family who pray with you during the hard times and they say this.
Things happen for a reason, and God's timing is perfect.
As many times as I've heard it, the second part is so so so true. So many times that we want things to happen the times we want it to happen and we forget to remember that there is a big picture that we can't see. That there is a reason God's allowed us to go through trials, to go through loss.
Just recently in my life God's used his timing in a way that I didn't see the big picture until now. I was working with Yogurtini for about 10 months on the Plaza when I got an opportunity to be closer to home and get a higher pay, and I took it. Then after being at that Yogurtini in Overland Park, I was fired, let go, after a month. A month, you may be thinking what I was thinking,,, how could God use you in that short period of time. Well He definitely did.
While I was at the Plaza Yogurtini, I had a supervisor I worked with the most, and she was definitely a Christian mentor to me while I was in that work place. We talked often about how God was working in our lives. Even a few times we took time to pray before the store opened. I absolutely appreciated having a supervisor, whose faith was so strong.
Then when I got the opportunity to move to the Overland Park Yogurtini, I took that same mentality that supervisor had for me and I wanted to do the same to the employees I was working with. I learned from one of my co-workers just started going back to church. Then a few days before I got fired, she told me that she went to a friends house and saw a Bible on his table, and she said she smiled really big. Then she took a step of faith and asked him if he went to church and he just so happened to say no, and she asked if he wanted to go with him. Now they are going to church together. The afternoon I got fired I called her, so she wouldn't be surprised when she went to work. Then I got a text from her that night said that she would pray for me. I also got a ton of supportive texts from a few of the other coworkers. Alot of them said I was their favorite shift leader, and one even said that if they[Yogurtini Manager/Owner] don't regreat firing you then they don't deserve you. It was just so encouraging.
Then I was looking for a job, cause I was honestly running low on money and I was crying out to God cause I was gettting so frustrated that no one was calling me back. Then I applied for this one job that fit my personality perfectly. Talking to people about children in poverty, and getting paid for it.
Of course as soon as I get almost out of money and I was doubting God would provide, I get a phone call from the Grassroots Campaign, and they told me that they wanted an interview. I went in for the interview the next day. The interview was one of the best ones I was apart of, cause I was truely being myself. And I got the job!
Now I look back and I know that even though I was at that last job for a month it's ok, cause I got to talk to people about my loving father and about the I Am Second Campaign. It was great, and I can't wait to see how God's going to use me while I am at this new job.
So even if things seem bad, things seem like they can't get better or you just can't see the light at the end of the tunnel, well, don't worry it's there. Just keep your eyes towards God and keep praying and have a willing heart to go and do what his heart wants. He has a plan, and His plan involves you loving others, one way or another, and bringing glory to His name.
Things happen for a reason, and God's timing is perfect.
As many times as I've heard it, the second part is so so so true. So many times that we want things to happen the times we want it to happen and we forget to remember that there is a big picture that we can't see. That there is a reason God's allowed us to go through trials, to go through loss.
Just recently in my life God's used his timing in a way that I didn't see the big picture until now. I was working with Yogurtini for about 10 months on the Plaza when I got an opportunity to be closer to home and get a higher pay, and I took it. Then after being at that Yogurtini in Overland Park, I was fired, let go, after a month. A month, you may be thinking what I was thinking,,, how could God use you in that short period of time. Well He definitely did.
While I was at the Plaza Yogurtini, I had a supervisor I worked with the most, and she was definitely a Christian mentor to me while I was in that work place. We talked often about how God was working in our lives. Even a few times we took time to pray before the store opened. I absolutely appreciated having a supervisor, whose faith was so strong.
Then when I got the opportunity to move to the Overland Park Yogurtini, I took that same mentality that supervisor had for me and I wanted to do the same to the employees I was working with. I learned from one of my co-workers just started going back to church. Then a few days before I got fired, she told me that she went to a friends house and saw a Bible on his table, and she said she smiled really big. Then she took a step of faith and asked him if he went to church and he just so happened to say no, and she asked if he wanted to go with him. Now they are going to church together. The afternoon I got fired I called her, so she wouldn't be surprised when she went to work. Then I got a text from her that night said that she would pray for me. I also got a ton of supportive texts from a few of the other coworkers. Alot of them said I was their favorite shift leader, and one even said that if they[Yogurtini Manager/Owner] don't regreat firing you then they don't deserve you. It was just so encouraging.
Then I was looking for a job, cause I was honestly running low on money and I was crying out to God cause I was gettting so frustrated that no one was calling me back. Then I applied for this one job that fit my personality perfectly. Talking to people about children in poverty, and getting paid for it.
Of course as soon as I get almost out of money and I was doubting God would provide, I get a phone call from the Grassroots Campaign, and they told me that they wanted an interview. I went in for the interview the next day. The interview was one of the best ones I was apart of, cause I was truely being myself. And I got the job!
Now I look back and I know that even though I was at that last job for a month it's ok, cause I got to talk to people about my loving father and about the I Am Second Campaign. It was great, and I can't wait to see how God's going to use me while I am at this new job.
So even if things seem bad, things seem like they can't get better or you just can't see the light at the end of the tunnel, well, don't worry it's there. Just keep your eyes towards God and keep praying and have a willing heart to go and do what his heart wants. He has a plan, and His plan involves you loving others, one way or another, and bringing glory to His name.
Monday, April 25, 2011
The 25 Campaign
So since yesterday, April 24th, was Easter, but at 7p I started my first of 25 hours of silence.
So why am I going silent for 25 hours of silence? Well if you have been reading my blog, you will know I am very active with an organization called Invisible Children.
I going silent because of a man whose name is Joseph Kony. He is abducting children and mutilating people. He is forcing the children to become child soldiers and have raping them. He has been doing these atrocities for 25 years. So there's that 25 again, silent for 25 hours for the 25 years this war has been going on.
We, the 1 million plus people participating, are also raising money for the Protection Plan. This Protection Plan is to build radio towers in the isolated villages in Congo, so they have a way to contact other villages of the LRA's location. They will also build a rehabilitation center for these children who were child soldiers and they don't want to go straight home because of the great atrocities they have seen. They are also wanting to put together search and rescue team. So when these children leave the LRA they are someone hundreds of miles away from their homes and this is a way for the teams to find their families.
So I wanted to tell you how my 25 hours have been going so far.... and I am going to be doing this by what I have written in my journal as the day has gone on, just cause you are most likely going to be getting the feeling I was feeling when all of that was happening. And maybe some stories I didn't record, I hope you enjoy it.
"about 10 minutes into my "25" & I can tell its gonna be hard. But I am doing not to bring glory to myself to be (ham check out how much I rock for doing this). Not doing this for the gloryof IC even though they are doing a great job. I am doing this to bring attention to those in Congo who are basically trapped by the LRA and have no war of communicating for help. Lord help me to keep that as a main focus than to myself.
Lord, I was wondering is what the LRA doing to the child soldiers, trafficking? I know it would be when because they doing things against ttheir will. LORD BE WITH THEM."
"I can honestly tell you that I am not gonna know how it really feels to not have any communication but I pray that You (GOD) would igive me some sense of how they feel."
"Right now it's not as bad as what I expected it to be except it makes me wonder. If I were more popular would it make more a difference, probably.
I mean I'm not saying that I want more friends, it'd be nice... maybe... LOL I'm not honestly sure to know what it would mean to know everyone. But I'm definitely OK with that cause I'm not that kind of person to have or mingle with a large group.
God, I pray that you would be with me the next eight hours.
Right now I feel like I would slightly know what it would feel to not have connection with the world. Sitting here in Down Under at Johnson County Community College. I can't talk to people and most of the time I wouldn't unless I knew them and there is no cell service unless I go outside or upstairs. I do feel isolated if an emergency were to happen and only I knew about it. It would be very hard to get people's attention unless I threw things at them, or ran over to tell them on paper. And wonder if they would respond or thought I was a crazy person and ignore me. then I could imagine the cycle going and by the time I'd get to someone that believed me it might be too late. I wish I could ask Laren if that's how they feel. And them I wonder that as soon as I go upstairs I'll get overwhelming texts and get excited that I would be able to tell people a little bit easier about what happened and what is happeneind and what is going to happen.
I bet the Congolese people are estatic when they get a radio tower. Maybe even at first they wont know exactly what to do with this new thing.
Talking, communications, television, the internet, it's all something we in America definitely take advantage of if we have that ability there were should use it for good rather than spreading lies or gossipping. We should use it to spread awareness about the atrocities of the world."
Welll this all that happened in my journal. :) But we also had an Invisible Children Club meeting and it was very very interesting. Cause well I couldn't talk but other people were because they are kind of new and they didn't know about it. So I was able to tell them about it. I love it!
This was my day.... it may be boring, but it has made a big difference in my life and the lives of those in congo. :) since we raised over $1 million.
About to break my silence in 2 and a half hours! You can learn more at Invisible Children's Website and watch a livestream that's going on right now. Maybe watch some Plain White T's, Mumford and Sons, David Archuleta and others. :)
So why am I going silent for 25 hours of silence? Well if you have been reading my blog, you will know I am very active with an organization called Invisible Children.
I going silent because of a man whose name is Joseph Kony. He is abducting children and mutilating people. He is forcing the children to become child soldiers and have raping them. He has been doing these atrocities for 25 years. So there's that 25 again, silent for 25 hours for the 25 years this war has been going on.
We, the 1 million plus people participating, are also raising money for the Protection Plan. This Protection Plan is to build radio towers in the isolated villages in Congo, so they have a way to contact other villages of the LRA's location. They will also build a rehabilitation center for these children who were child soldiers and they don't want to go straight home because of the great atrocities they have seen. They are also wanting to put together search and rescue team. So when these children leave the LRA they are someone hundreds of miles away from their homes and this is a way for the teams to find their families.
So I wanted to tell you how my 25 hours have been going so far.... and I am going to be doing this by what I have written in my journal as the day has gone on, just cause you are most likely going to be getting the feeling I was feeling when all of that was happening. And maybe some stories I didn't record, I hope you enjoy it.
"about 10 minutes into my "25" & I can tell its gonna be hard. But I am doing not to bring glory to myself to be (ham check out how much I rock for doing this). Not doing this for the gloryof IC even though they are doing a great job. I am doing this to bring attention to those in Congo who are basically trapped by the LRA and have no war of communicating for help. Lord help me to keep that as a main focus than to myself.
Lord, I was wondering is what the LRA doing to the child soldiers, trafficking? I know it would be when because they doing things against ttheir will. LORD BE WITH THEM."
"I can honestly tell you that I am not gonna know how it really feels to not have any communication but I pray that You (GOD) would igive me some sense of how they feel."
"Right now it's not as bad as what I expected it to be except it makes me wonder. If I were more popular would it make more a difference, probably.
I mean I'm not saying that I want more friends, it'd be nice... maybe... LOL I'm not honestly sure to know what it would mean to know everyone. But I'm definitely OK with that cause I'm not that kind of person to have or mingle with a large group.
God, I pray that you would be with me the next eight hours.
Right now I feel like I would slightly know what it would feel to not have connection with the world. Sitting here in Down Under at Johnson County Community College. I can't talk to people and most of the time I wouldn't unless I knew them and there is no cell service unless I go outside or upstairs. I do feel isolated if an emergency were to happen and only I knew about it. It would be very hard to get people's attention unless I threw things at them, or ran over to tell them on paper. And wonder if they would respond or thought I was a crazy person and ignore me. then I could imagine the cycle going and by the time I'd get to someone that believed me it might be too late. I wish I could ask Laren if that's how they feel. And them I wonder that as soon as I go upstairs I'll get overwhelming texts and get excited that I would be able to tell people a little bit easier about what happened and what is happeneind and what is going to happen.
I bet the Congolese people are estatic when they get a radio tower. Maybe even at first they wont know exactly what to do with this new thing.
Talking, communications, television, the internet, it's all something we in America definitely take advantage of if we have that ability there were should use it for good rather than spreading lies or gossipping. We should use it to spread awareness about the atrocities of the world."
Welll this all that happened in my journal. :) But we also had an Invisible Children Club meeting and it was very very interesting. Cause well I couldn't talk but other people were because they are kind of new and they didn't know about it. So I was able to tell them about it. I love it!
This was my day.... it may be boring, but it has made a big difference in my life and the lives of those in congo. :) since we raised over $1 million.
About to break my silence in 2 and a half hours! You can learn more at Invisible Children's Website and watch a livestream that's going on right now. Maybe watch some Plain White T's, Mumford and Sons, David Archuleta and others. :)
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