My family... why can't it be like my church family? I want it to be. I try my best. Today I tried as hard as my stress level would let me... to honor my parents. I want to be a good christian and does include honoring my parents and I think that is one of my weaknesses as a christian. I feel like I am the strongest christian in the family and it's kind of hard to talk with people about where I am on my walk with Christ if no body that I talk to has been that close to Him.
I try to do activities with the family like try to include everyone but it's hard, I've told my youth pastor and not very many other people. My family has a anger problem. I try not to the first thing I am doing now is getting my journal, bible, highlighter, and pen. I just start reading and writing and open my bible and see what pops out to me then I right about that verse or section and think how I can use it in my everyday life. It's hard... but it does keep my mind from thinking those bad thoughts coming into my mind that I shouldn't have.
I guess you can kind of say that I am starting a little t-shirt company and well it's kind of a pain in the rear. Since I have never done it before and well I kind of got wrong kind of ironing stuff. Like it's not see through. SOOOO I have to now cut out each idividual letter person and every single little thing and it's already driving me nuts just the thoughts of it. I don't know what to do, except lay everything at the foot of the cross and just let God take control of it.
That was the bad... now time for the good!
In couple of days I am going to NYC in St. Louis, and it is going to so much fun. I am so excited for all of the people that is going to be there and well I just hope that I get closer to God on that trip and closer to all of my spiritual family. I am so excited!!!!!!!!! I can on forever about how excited I am about it.
I am about to get kicked off the computer so peace out!
