Life in General

My family... why can't it be like my church family? I want it to be. I try my best. Today I tried as hard as my stress level would let me... to honor my parents. I want to be a good christian and does include honoring my parents and I think that is one of my weaknesses as a christian. I feel like I am the strongest christian in the family and it's kind of hard to talk with people about where I am on my walk with Christ if no body that I talk to has been that close to Him.

I try to do activities with the family like try to include everyone but it's hard, I've told my youth pastor and not very many other people. My family has a anger problem. I try not to the first thing I am doing now is getting my journal, bible, highlighter, and pen. I just start reading and writing and open my bible and see what pops out to me then I right about that verse or section and think how I can use it in my everyday life. It's hard... but it does keep my mind from thinking those bad thoughts coming into my mind that I shouldn't have.

I guess you can kind of say that I am starting a little t-shirt company and well it's kind of a pain in the rear. Since I have never done it before and well I kind of got wrong kind of ironing stuff. Like it's not see through. SOOOO I have to now cut out each idividual letter person and every single little thing and it's already driving me nuts just the thoughts of it. I don't know what to do, except lay everything at the foot of the cross and just let God take control of it.


That was the bad... now time for the good!

In couple of days I am going to NYC in St. Louis, and it is going to so much fun. I am so excited for all of the people that is going to be there and well I just hope that I get closer to God on that trip and closer to all of my spiritual family. I am so excited!!!!!!!!! I can on forever about how excited I am about it.

I am about to get kicked off the computer so peace out!

Crushes

Crushes... what pops into mind when you hear crushes? To me it's a guy that you like and can't tell him you like him so it seems that he will "crush" you.

I mean, I have liked this one guy at my school for at least 3 months now... it may not seem very long for you but for me that's very long. I mean I have liked a guys longer than that but this different... I mean I have been day dreams about him and me together, but I can't think of the first date because I am probably going to be so quiet. But he's kind of my "Friendly Friend"... I feel right now that it is only going to be a friend kind of a relationship not more.

I guess what I've been doing is praying to God that he is the right guy for me. I don't want him to be the wrong guy for me and I know that God doesn't want that either. So I need prayer that God will give me guidence through this very "crushing" time for me.

Jobs

Jobs... Alot of people talk about hating them. But me I just applied for my first job at Past and Presents. It so cool... my youth pastor calls it Hallmark on steroids. Which it kind of is, but it have less cards but more crafty stuff. And for those that know me... this is such like a perfect job for me. I just hope that I get it... I just turned in my application, and now all I have to do is wait for a phone call, for my first interview of my entire life.

Parents

"Parents you can't live with them, you can't live without them." That's one saying I totally agree with. Right now at this moment in time. I have to say that I only agree with the first part. I know this is something a teenager goes through all their teenage career, but right now I feel that my mom, especially, loves my brother alot more than me. I mean when I need to use the computer for homework, she makes me handle it. But when my brother has to use the computer it's all like, " Mommy, Sisi won't get off the computer and I need to do the computer." Oh B.S., once he says that it's super mommy to the rescue. "Laura, Get off the computer!" And then I get mad, and start throwing a fit because it's not fair. I know "Life isn't fair"

I know in the bible it talks about honoring your mother and father. But if you don't get along with them it gets really hard. What is a person to do if they don't have a good relationship with their parent, or guardians.

Personally I have been having mother problems for about 3-4 months right now. And I taking it really hard. I heard people say that my mom is immature. But what am to say. I know I should stick up for her but.... Right now, I don't know if I would. I have been praying for our relationship for at least half the time. I know others are praying for it too. I don't know what to do.

I know for one thing. In the newest Edition of Brio&Beyond they are having this one day conference. And there is one coming up on November 3, in Kansas City. I am so excited. I think God had this in mind maybe this will be something for me and my mom to do. I mean this conference is all about getting closer with your mother, and mothers closer with daughter, so I think God has maybe answered my prayer about strengthening our relationship.

If any of you who read this have any advice for me please comment.

Yeah A New Blog!

Hey Everyone! I am so excited. I have a new blog to post on. I have a MySpace, Xanga, Facebook, and now a Blogger. This is so much fun. I love blogging. It's fun! I tell people how I feel. Mostly it's about my religion, Christianity, and it gives others advice I heard, and it also helps me. I get most of my feelings out when I write, or in this case type things out. Some times I might also have some pretty cool stuff.

Thoughts from Laura!