Well, so I have been doing a lot of thinking about this crazy thing called dating. Why is this concept crazy to a 20, almost 21, year old? It's crazy because I have been single my entire life. As crazy as it may seem to some people, and it seems crazy to me sometimes, but honestly I definitely was not ready for a real relationship.
Lately, I have been thinking about dating, relationship with a guy(scary thought right there, lol), but I think, I think I'm ready. Or at least finally ready to have a closer relationship with a guy than I have normally had in my life. Maybe not dating, but something more than just a friend, maybe a best friend. Who knows.
Gah... I don't know, it's just so nerve-wrecking for me to think about going on a first date, just the thought of it is a little awkward. All I know is I need to listen to myself to know when to take things to the next step, I shouldn't force myself to go where I am not ready, even if people my age are getting married.
Everyone's different and I just need to take it at my own pace.
