What Do I Need To Do To Make You Proud of Me?

So question... what do I need to do to make you proud of me? Become an IT Manager, and become a Godly man just like you are? Do I need to go and become a '' children's pastor'' at two different churches? Do I need to have two kids and show more love to one? Do I need to tell my kid, '' I am not going to your baptism because you are only doing it for attention."? Do I just need to kill myself, because it seems like your life would be heaven if I were gone... oh wait do you still believe in God?

It always seems to you that everything I do in my life is to get attention. Well it isn't true. if it were true, I may have joined the marines just because you did. maybe I would have stayed home and helped mommy cleaned the house. Maybe i would be the perfect little angel you always wanted me to be. Get  all A's, be skinny, be active, move out, listen to you ALL THE TIME. Well sorry... wait... I am not sorry for not being what you want me to be.

I want to work for Invisible Children, work for World Vision, work for TOMS, work for Falling Whistles, go to Uganda, go to Swaziland, go to Kenya, or go to some third world country. It's not because I like the organization, it is because God has called me to do that.

Sorry to disappoint you dad, that I am not going to live in some nice apartment while working 60+ hours a week cooking food. Sorry for disappointing Grandma. I can not face her at the wedding, I won't be going. I can't face anyone.

I feel like Jared before he bumped into David. Alone, in need, in want of a family... a loving family... a loving father.

If you are reading this. I don't want you to change unless you want to change.

You are constantly telling me to get my priorities straight, and I tell you that I do. I do have them straight. God, God's purpose, friends, family, school, work. And, yes, I believe that school and work go that low on my priorities list. And, yes, Invisible Children would fall under God's Purpose. I feel God calling me to this amazing Organization, whether you believe me or not is your choice.

I am just frustrated that I tell you that "by the way, 5 people found the lord this week." All you can say is, " Yeah I read that on Facebook." not even a '' Wow that's amazing, Praise God'' or '' I am PROUD  of you for going outside your comfort zone.''

I bet you don't even know what my comfort zone is. I bet you don't even know what I believe God wants me to do in Third World Countries.

It's nice to know that I have at least one father, who really loves me and cares about what I do or think.

Forgotten Daugther,
Laura

How Exciting! The Invisible Children Fall Roadie Applications Are Up!!!

So, I was on Facebook tonight, and noticed one of my friends saying that she was going to make her roadie video, then it got me thinking, "hmmm... is the roadie application up now?"

I checked and there it was. I was the roadie video, and read the testimonies... well let's just say something kicked in. I was getting goosebumps, and my heart was racing just thinking about the possibility of being apart of such an awesome organization and going around the country spreading this passion like wild fire.

Just being apart of organizing the Rescue in Kansas City, and doing lobby days. Seeing all those people with the same passion just gets me going. I mean come on! LIVEFEED, the birth of the swap doodle (by the way I got my first doodle back!), Oprah, the bill, OklaHOLD OUT, Couburn saying yes, passing through Senate with UNANIMOUS CONSENT! So much has happened, my life has changed because of Invisible Children. I can speak in front of crowds because of Invisible Children, because before I was have a hard time just reading one verse in front of the youth group, now I can speak in front of high school classes and speak for almost one-half hour on the subject.

If it wasn't for Invisible Children, I think I would still be ignoring God's call for me to be a missionary or working with non profits such as Invisible Children, World Vision, or TOMS. Oh man, I would still be in culinary with no time for what my heart is in, volunteering and giving up my time for a better purpose.

As I go through the application process, I ask that you would pray for me, that I make the right decision and follow God's heart, rather than my own heart. And that I would continue to trust in God, that he will provide a way for me to afford this.

Your little activist,
Laura