You may or may not know, but I am 100% sure I know that.... God is awesome and always proves himself to his children, his loving beautiful children, that we are loved and we do have a purpose in life even when something proves itself to not actually be the road he wants you on.
Ok, you maybe thinking. "Laura, come on. Stop rambling, and get to what you are talking about!"
Well, many, if not most, know that I applied for the Invisible Children Roadie Position for the fall of 2010, which, yes, is this fall. So yes, that obviously means that I didn't get it. Me being the type of person that when I am apart of something I am really committed and won't stop until it or something else stops or takes my attention.
Well I can tell you that Invisible Children will forever and always be apart of my life until those children are back to their families and their homes and education are what they use to be, before this war. So, let's just say when I didn't get the position that I was extrememly sad for a while. I found out the bad news at a concert, and you know every other concert before then would be filled with great news like: the bill passed unanimously through congress, or President Obama passed to bill turning it into a law. Then this 'bad' news came and I was devistated. But then I went and enjoyed the company of my friends with K-love and Air1.
I am telling you, when God closes one door He WILL open another door, it may take a while to find it, but He does. I can tell you it took me a while, and you know I still may not have found that open door. But he has definitely brought people into my life recently telling me that 'blank' wouldn't happen if I weren't here. And you know I am just starting to take those things and really suck that in.
Not alot of people know, but I used to want to kill myself all the time or I would want to cut myself. With God's wonderful and glorious help I could get through it. And it's sad that it's just now that I am starting to see that I do make a difference, and I do have a purpose.
I know that my friend, Shane, has told me that if I was in San Diego with Invisible Children, then I wouldn't be helping with One12 Live and The ((Sound)) Movement. Has told me multiple times how much he appreciates my help.
My friend, Brian, is constantly I don't know how to say. It feels weird. Let's just say he is really awesome at building people up and just giving them a ton of adoration. And I use to hate getting compliments, but now it's just like, 'wow, am I that great that people would talk about me like that?'
Then my new friend, Blake from Jimmy Needham's band, was like Shane in saying that if I weren't here, then he wouldn't have had the help I gave him with the merch. (Let's just say, I truely love doing merch. I think I need to really be on the other side, constantly doing it to see if I still like it.)
I really want to thank everyone. Thank you, for making me feel important, I know that it's all God. I am honestly still trying to get use to the whole people giving me adoration, but you know it's helped me to understand my place in life, and that really really do have a purpose in life!
