Here's the lyrics to Matt Gilman's "Every Captive Free" and after wards I'll be taking stuff from my prayer journal that I wrote about the song and the dream as a parallel in some parts.
God will be BOLD. We are UNDERLINED.
"Every Captive Free" Matt Gilman
For Spirit of the Lord God is upon me
Because He has annointed me to preach good news
Take away all of the sorrows and your mourning
To give the oil of joy and a garmet of praise
For I have seen you in your captivity
And I will open up every prison door
So arise and shine for your light has come
And my glory is rising upon you (repeat)
And I am dancing over you
I am singing over you
Songs of deliverance
And I will set every captive free
And you will be with me (repeat)
I have seen you in your captivity
And I will open up every prison door
So arise and shine for your light has come
And my glory is rising upon you
And I am dancing over you
I am singing over you
Songs of deliverance
And I will set every captive free
And you will be will me
You are mine
I have carried the way of all your iniquities
I've carried the burden of all your shame
I have called you by name
I've called you by name
You are Mine (x3)
My journal comments about the parallel about the song and the dream... and life.
"The Spirit of the Lord God is upon me because He has annointed me to preach good news."
- This part sticks out to me because i am about to be leading a study at JCCC.
"Take away all of the sorrow and your mourning, to give the oil of joy and a garmet of praise."
- Just going through this song and comparig it to my dream and now. The craig which normally is a dark room in my dream was so bright. Like so much more joyous and clean like something was lifted, like a burden.
"For Your light has come and My glory is rising upon you."
- The light again in that room and you, I knew your glory was in that room, on that campus cause in my fream I was worshipping you with my arms held high praising you. And your glory was well within me.
"I have carried the way of all your iniquities, I've carried the burden of all your shame."
- I mentioned it earlier, I really feel like that room being bright was like a burden being lifted and that room from what I can remember now full of joy and happiness and praise.
Lord I pray that opening and disecting this song will really be what this dream meant and I pray and hope and pray that this dream was prophectic. That You will use me to preach the good news. Lift up our burdens and our iniquities and replace it with joy and a garmet of praise to worship you.
So I hope you get excited as much as I am every time I listen to this song and/or tell someone about it.
Wednesday, March 23, 2011
Tuesday, March 22, 2011
"Welcome To JCCC's Student Awakening"
So I had a dream last Friday, March 18, 2011, night. And I absolutely have to tell you about this dream. The amazing part is that I haven't been consciencely been thinking about the out pouring of God's spirit over JCCC is a long time. This is where I want to begin. I can honestly tell you though I don't know what happened at the beginning of the dream, but right before the part I am most excited about I was hanging out with some new friends I had just made at JCCC.
I was walking on "my JCCC campus" (it's mine cause there are parts that look like JCCC and there are parts that I have added to it or maybe they do exist I just haven't been there yet). I remember walking with a group of friends and then I had looked up and saw a sign that said, "GPR" and an arrow going left. Which at the IHOP-KC is the "Global Prayer Room." I remember getting super excited and smiling and jumping and thinking, " Oh my goodness. It can't be it. That's awesome." I followed the arrows and the signs that led me to this room that was reminded me very much of the Craig Auditorium. I remember walking in not seeing Wes, who was the guy that typically led intercession prayers during the Awakening Services at IHOP, but I heard his voice saying, "Welcome to JCCC student awakening." And I looked on stage and to my surprise I saw Matt Gilman on stage smiling. As I looked into the room it was much brighter than the Craig normally is. There wasn't alot of people in there and I well didn't recognize alot of them either. I remember walking in there with my arms raised high praising God for this service and room. As soon as I grabbed my seat Matt started playing "Every Captive Free."
I will post the lyrics of that song soon, but now every time I hear that song it will remind to pray for an outpouring on JCCC or other collge campuses.
I was walking on "my JCCC campus" (it's mine cause there are parts that look like JCCC and there are parts that I have added to it or maybe they do exist I just haven't been there yet). I remember walking with a group of friends and then I had looked up and saw a sign that said, "GPR" and an arrow going left. Which at the IHOP-KC is the "Global Prayer Room." I remember getting super excited and smiling and jumping and thinking, " Oh my goodness. It can't be it. That's awesome." I followed the arrows and the signs that led me to this room that was reminded me very much of the Craig Auditorium. I remember walking in not seeing Wes, who was the guy that typically led intercession prayers during the Awakening Services at IHOP, but I heard his voice saying, "Welcome to JCCC student awakening." And I looked on stage and to my surprise I saw Matt Gilman on stage smiling. As I looked into the room it was much brighter than the Craig normally is. There wasn't alot of people in there and I well didn't recognize alot of them either. I remember walking in there with my arms raised high praising God for this service and room. As soon as I grabbed my seat Matt started playing "Every Captive Free."
I will post the lyrics of that song soon, but now every time I hear that song it will remind to pray for an outpouring on JCCC or other collge campuses.
Sunday, March 6, 2011
I Believe That You Will Come Like The Rain
"I believe that you will come, like the rain.
I believe that you will come like the rain.
You'll come like the rain,
You'll come like the rain."
Ok, so confession time, I have always sang this song knowing that it was a great worship song and I believed that He[God] would come like the rain. I just imagined it being His love covering us, overwhelming us with His love, mercy, grace, and joy. But I never really took time to really know or understand the importance of God coming to us like the rain.
Last night, Friday, March 4, I partook in my friends' prayer meeting at their church. I was not expecting to be moved in such a way, or expected to learn so much. Oh man. That song came on and I prayed it over that prayer room. Then it hit me, I didn't know why it's so important that God comes like the rain. So here's word for word what is written in my journal entry for Friday, March 4th.
"Lord, I pray that You would come like the rain.
Lord I was just wondering what it meant for You to come like the rain. And why it's so important that you come like the rain.
Crops need rain to grow. All rivers and streams are dependent on rain or else a cycle would be dead. Life is dependent on rain or water. Even some cities are dependent on water or rain to survive as a civilization.
If you are like rain then we are like crops that need moisture (your word) to grow. If we are the rivers and streams then we need your rain to keep us flowing Lord. If we arent moving and flwoing the more the stuff in us die out.
Lord this is beautiful. I pray you would come rain in my life. You're so great Lord. Thanks for that revelation in my life. I love it when I understand a new way, a new part of you. Lord you are great. Your love is so high, so deep, so wide that I will seem to never be able to comprehend it or all of you."
Then tonight, March 5th, our teacher just basically reconfirmed all that I just said... except... he pulled Moses into all of this. Remember that story of Moses when he's in the desert and the people are all like, I am so thirsty. The Lord tells Moses to hit that rock with his staff and the water comes out. Now tell me you've never thought that, that story would relate to Jesus... it absolutely does! Whose the rock? Jesus. When the soldiers pierced his side, what came out? Water. What did Jesus tell the lady at the well about? Living water. Our body needs what to survive? It needs water. Jesus is that living water, he is what we need to survive. Woa, right. Oh man! I just love that study.
Next time it rains, maybe you'll think about the Lord coming to us like the rain. I pray that when it does rain, that you would pray for raining over your life or where ever you are at.
I believe that you will come like the rain.
You'll come like the rain,
You'll come like the rain."
Ok, so confession time, I have always sang this song knowing that it was a great worship song and I believed that He[God] would come like the rain. I just imagined it being His love covering us, overwhelming us with His love, mercy, grace, and joy. But I never really took time to really know or understand the importance of God coming to us like the rain.
Last night, Friday, March 4, I partook in my friends' prayer meeting at their church. I was not expecting to be moved in such a way, or expected to learn so much. Oh man. That song came on and I prayed it over that prayer room. Then it hit me, I didn't know why it's so important that God comes like the rain. So here's word for word what is written in my journal entry for Friday, March 4th.
"Lord, I pray that You would come like the rain.
Lord I was just wondering what it meant for You to come like the rain. And why it's so important that you come like the rain.
Crops need rain to grow. All rivers and streams are dependent on rain or else a cycle would be dead. Life is dependent on rain or water. Even some cities are dependent on water or rain to survive as a civilization.
If you are like rain then we are like crops that need moisture (your word) to grow. If we are the rivers and streams then we need your rain to keep us flowing Lord. If we arent moving and flwoing the more the stuff in us die out.
Lord this is beautiful. I pray you would come rain in my life. You're so great Lord. Thanks for that revelation in my life. I love it when I understand a new way, a new part of you. Lord you are great. Your love is so high, so deep, so wide that I will seem to never be able to comprehend it or all of you."
Then tonight, March 5th, our teacher just basically reconfirmed all that I just said... except... he pulled Moses into all of this. Remember that story of Moses when he's in the desert and the people are all like, I am so thirsty. The Lord tells Moses to hit that rock with his staff and the water comes out. Now tell me you've never thought that, that story would relate to Jesus... it absolutely does! Whose the rock? Jesus. When the soldiers pierced his side, what came out? Water. What did Jesus tell the lady at the well about? Living water. Our body needs what to survive? It needs water. Jesus is that living water, he is what we need to survive. Woa, right. Oh man! I just love that study.
Next time it rains, maybe you'll think about the Lord coming to us like the rain. I pray that when it does rain, that you would pray for raining over your life or where ever you are at.
Thursday, March 3, 2011
Everyone Has a Story... What's Yours?
So I have a friend that's been bugging to hear my story, my testimony, how God's been working my life.
I literally just read and skimmed through all of the journals I've kept since I have lived in Kansas, and those are the ones I still have. But it's just interesting looking back then and seeing myself now.
Ever since I was little, I had always felt alone or always desired to be apart of the popular crowd, but who hasn't. I had been different at church... instead of being full Korean, I was only half. So it was weird, cause not very many people would talk to me. The only people I ever talked to when I went to a Korean church were the half blooded, or muggles, you could say. So I just desired attention from a young age.
You know to me, I seem to hide how I am feeling deep down. I share my feelings that you could have seen in my everyday life. But I remember even in like 3rd or 4th grade talking to my friends about starting diets with them and how we need to loose weight. You could even say that's when I didn't really think of myself as beautiful. I would look at guys and have crushes on them and you would see it constantly in my journals that I wouldn't talk to them, or I was afraid to confront them because I "knew" they didn't like me back. I didn't think a guy would ever like me that way.
I even remember my parents fighting all the time and I absolutely hated it. Mainly because when I would listen, it was typically about me. Which would bring down my self-esteem even more. I just never thought I was ever good enough for my parents. I always thought they loved my brother so much more than they love me. And they loved his decisions even more.
I think that senior year was so much worse. It was just so stressful, trying to decide on schools... mainly trying to make my parents happy. I felt like what ever decision I was going to make had to make my parents happy. It didn't seem like they liked my ideas. I have my entire life loved volunteering and that's where my heart is. Culinary arts took up so much time and left no time for volunteering I just couldn't handle it. I felt me going to a community college would just disappoint my parents. Senior year just had a dark cloud over my life. I had a little before senior year thought about killing myself. I thought about everything from cutting myself (bleeding myself to death), drowning myself in the tub, overdosing on Tylenol, hanging myself, and other things. I always thought that because I didn't do any of it, it made me a coward.
There were times when I wanted to end my life by crashing my car, but I would have on K-love Radio. I would remember I had a rough day at home and at work, and I was driving home, just thinking about my life and how I hated it. God would come in, I remember pulling onto the on ramp for Lackman from Shawnee Mission Parkway that the song, "How He Loves" by David Crowder Band came on the radio. This song just touched me in a way that no one else could except God.
God's continued to use music in my life.
Even though I lived through all this badness in my life, I can tell you during the highs and lows in my life God was always there. He's the one that asked me, "How would your family and friends feel if you left them?" I have always turned to God. I have had a love and a passion for God, and reaching my lost friends. But the devil had a foothold in my life, and that was my self-esteem and how I looked. He could take that and make me weak.
I go to the International House of Prayer in Kansas City. When I went during this time of darkness in my life and would go up for prayer. People would always pray that I am Hephzibah, and I am beautiful. I can honestly tell you that when I would go up for prayer for something else they would pray this over me in my life.
I can tell you honestly that I have some of these thoughts everyone once in a while, but definitely not as often as I did. I praise God for that. I have renounced the spirit of low self-esteem and depression to leave me. I look at my life and I see that so much more happier than I was then. I have so much joy, cause I AM HEPHZIBAH! The LORD does delight in me. I am beautiful. Even if my earthly parents aren't proud of me, I know that there is a heavenly Father that cares about every thing and where my passions lie.
This is my story, and it still continues. What's your story?
I literally just read and skimmed through all of the journals I've kept since I have lived in Kansas, and those are the ones I still have. But it's just interesting looking back then and seeing myself now.
Ever since I was little, I had always felt alone or always desired to be apart of the popular crowd, but who hasn't. I had been different at church... instead of being full Korean, I was only half. So it was weird, cause not very many people would talk to me. The only people I ever talked to when I went to a Korean church were the half blooded, or muggles, you could say. So I just desired attention from a young age.
You know to me, I seem to hide how I am feeling deep down. I share my feelings that you could have seen in my everyday life. But I remember even in like 3rd or 4th grade talking to my friends about starting diets with them and how we need to loose weight. You could even say that's when I didn't really think of myself as beautiful. I would look at guys and have crushes on them and you would see it constantly in my journals that I wouldn't talk to them, or I was afraid to confront them because I "knew" they didn't like me back. I didn't think a guy would ever like me that way.
I even remember my parents fighting all the time and I absolutely hated it. Mainly because when I would listen, it was typically about me. Which would bring down my self-esteem even more. I just never thought I was ever good enough for my parents. I always thought they loved my brother so much more than they love me. And they loved his decisions even more.
I think that senior year was so much worse. It was just so stressful, trying to decide on schools... mainly trying to make my parents happy. I felt like what ever decision I was going to make had to make my parents happy. It didn't seem like they liked my ideas. I have my entire life loved volunteering and that's where my heart is. Culinary arts took up so much time and left no time for volunteering I just couldn't handle it. I felt me going to a community college would just disappoint my parents. Senior year just had a dark cloud over my life. I had a little before senior year thought about killing myself. I thought about everything from cutting myself (bleeding myself to death), drowning myself in the tub, overdosing on Tylenol, hanging myself, and other things. I always thought that because I didn't do any of it, it made me a coward.
There were times when I wanted to end my life by crashing my car, but I would have on K-love Radio. I would remember I had a rough day at home and at work, and I was driving home, just thinking about my life and how I hated it. God would come in, I remember pulling onto the on ramp for Lackman from Shawnee Mission Parkway that the song, "How He Loves" by David Crowder Band came on the radio. This song just touched me in a way that no one else could except God.
God's continued to use music in my life.
Even though I lived through all this badness in my life, I can tell you during the highs and lows in my life God was always there. He's the one that asked me, "How would your family and friends feel if you left them?" I have always turned to God. I have had a love and a passion for God, and reaching my lost friends. But the devil had a foothold in my life, and that was my self-esteem and how I looked. He could take that and make me weak.
I go to the International House of Prayer in Kansas City. When I went during this time of darkness in my life and would go up for prayer. People would always pray that I am Hephzibah, and I am beautiful. I can honestly tell you that when I would go up for prayer for something else they would pray this over me in my life.
I can tell you honestly that I have some of these thoughts everyone once in a while, but definitely not as often as I did. I praise God for that. I have renounced the spirit of low self-esteem and depression to leave me. I look at my life and I see that so much more happier than I was then. I have so much joy, cause I AM HEPHZIBAH! The LORD does delight in me. I am beautiful. Even if my earthly parents aren't proud of me, I know that there is a heavenly Father that cares about every thing and where my passions lie.
This is my story, and it still continues. What's your story?
Wednesday, March 2, 2011
Is It Just Talk?
So as a Christian, you are told since basically day one that you really should partake in prayer and reading the Bible. You never really quite understand why until you go through what I went through this week.
I can tell that the past month, or even this year so far has been so amazing. I have been on a walk with God that's been much higher than I have in the past. I have been so hungry for God's word and continual communication with him, and not just at certain times of the day. God has also been placing great people in my life as a example, or people I should be walking along side with in my walk with God. These people are also so hungry for God. They love telling people about God's love, or even just showing them God's love. It's just been a great walk.
Although, I didn't think about it. I woke up Monday morning and well, I felt like I was in a hurry, and I really wasn't. When I got to JCCC, I really wanted to do a prayer walk and really invite people to the Bible study that happened at noon. The devil really tempted me and dug into me, and I gave in. I went and sat in a corner of the school and made cards, I just felt so guilty, so bad. I felt even more upset with myself when NO ONE showed up to Bible Study. I didn't tell Andy or Caylee that I was planning on inviting people, and I felt it was my fault.
I didn't really think anything of it until today. Even Tuesday, I didn't make an effort to pray or study His word. I just felt down in the dumps. But I can tell you that was partially a lie. I worked, so when I work, I leave home an hour early to get to work on time. And I spend any extra time in the library that's right next door and spend that time praying. I did spend some time and it just renewed my spirit.
Then today, I was just so excited cause I remembered out InterVarsity's "reverse bake sale." Yes, that's right, reverse bake sale. What is it? It's when we give baked goods away, when people that stop by and answer a thought provoking question and/or give a prayer request. We are basically wanting to spark up conversations with people and share God's love with them. And pray for them as needed. We did something like this before and it was great. Last time we received prayer requests mainly in prayer for healing and wanting to draw closer to Him; this time they were heart-breaking, at least for me. I noticed though that there are still a ton of people hungry for God. JCCC is hungry for God.
Went off a little bit, but this is just one example of why you should pray and study His word often and daily, if not weekly. It just helps to keep your mind set. I love it.
God bless.
I can tell that the past month, or even this year so far has been so amazing. I have been on a walk with God that's been much higher than I have in the past. I have been so hungry for God's word and continual communication with him, and not just at certain times of the day. God has also been placing great people in my life as a example, or people I should be walking along side with in my walk with God. These people are also so hungry for God. They love telling people about God's love, or even just showing them God's love. It's just been a great walk.
Although, I didn't think about it. I woke up Monday morning and well, I felt like I was in a hurry, and I really wasn't. When I got to JCCC, I really wanted to do a prayer walk and really invite people to the Bible study that happened at noon. The devil really tempted me and dug into me, and I gave in. I went and sat in a corner of the school and made cards, I just felt so guilty, so bad. I felt even more upset with myself when NO ONE showed up to Bible Study. I didn't tell Andy or Caylee that I was planning on inviting people, and I felt it was my fault.
I didn't really think anything of it until today. Even Tuesday, I didn't make an effort to pray or study His word. I just felt down in the dumps. But I can tell you that was partially a lie. I worked, so when I work, I leave home an hour early to get to work on time. And I spend any extra time in the library that's right next door and spend that time praying. I did spend some time and it just renewed my spirit.
Then today, I was just so excited cause I remembered out InterVarsity's "reverse bake sale." Yes, that's right, reverse bake sale. What is it? It's when we give baked goods away, when people that stop by and answer a thought provoking question and/or give a prayer request. We are basically wanting to spark up conversations with people and share God's love with them. And pray for them as needed. We did something like this before and it was great. Last time we received prayer requests mainly in prayer for healing and wanting to draw closer to Him; this time they were heart-breaking, at least for me. I noticed though that there are still a ton of people hungry for God. JCCC is hungry for God.
Went off a little bit, but this is just one example of why you should pray and study His word often and daily, if not weekly. It just helps to keep your mind set. I love it.
God bless.
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