Tree Nuts... Love Em, Hate Em

I have been thinking a lot lately about this video of a sister in Christ telling her testimony about how Jesus healed her from a peanut allergy. Like she was highly allergic and my friend, Tommy, told me that she reacted earlier that week. She was so allergic that even if a jar of peanut butter was open on the opposite side of the room she would break out. I saw her in this video, hold the jar of peanut butter to her face, and scoop this large "fork" full of peanut butter and eat all of it. It was just a beautiful site.
While I was watching that I was thinking, what if as I was watching that testimony that God would heal from my allergy to tree nuts. That would be a miracle. I could eat the foods I have been thinking about and putting in my menu projects and well almost wishing I could eat nuts.

Then I hadn't thought much of that video until me and Rebekah went to go see Les Miserables. There we bumped into Tommy and he told Rebekah what had happened and what's been going on with his internship. Then he prayed over me, and my nut allergy. Honestly, can I say it, as he was praying... I didn't really have 100% faith that Jesus, the Son of God, could heal me. I had doubt.

Doubt. That's the thing that could be keeping me from believing that I am free from this allergy when I am. I mean, I could be even now free from this nut allergy and not even know it cause there's this five letter word taking over my heart and brain.

I have been talking to God, the Holy Spirit. I even at the musical wanted to just take one of Rebekah's pecans and eat it. But I was scared. I still want to do it now...

I can tell you one thing. I would definitely not be able to keep quiet about it. I would have to proclaim it. Cause well, I've been allergic since I can remember. A lot of my friends, even my non-christian friends have seen me break out. Gah, I am crying just thinking about it. IF WHEN they see me eat a tree nut and I AM healed, we can only then do ONE THING to God's name... and that is be glorified.

Glorified by... eating another nut... praising His glorious name... thanking Him... even make my dreams and prayers come true, that I may see my bestest of friends in heaven because they call out His amazing name.

I so ask.
Pray that I would be bold.
Pray that I wouldn't have doubt.
Pray that I wouldn't be scared but TRUST that God has HEALED me.